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[06 Jun 2008|09:13pm] |
so once again
another week creeps by
where has the time gone
i graduate in i beileve 2 weeks
im so excited
but at the same time i am so fucking scared
this year really has been a hectic one
i partially blame whats happened on myself
i hope i end up one day feeling like i did it all for the best
that in the end it wasnt a mistake
ill be going to smc for 2 years
and then transfer out
possibly an art school
or maybe cslb i hear they have a good art department....
i think ill enjoy college
bein out on my own...
i get my liscence next week
ill be mobile finally
...i dont know why i lagged it so much
and fuck i feel weird to admit.....
but i fucking miss you dude
i really do
and it sounds dumb
but its just how it is i guess
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[01 Jun 2008|06:28pm] |
wooh
i think this has pretty much been the best weekend
for the most part >.<
mmm friday i went down into the hood...inglewood
to go to a bomb ass ska show
it was in a random lot so there was dirt everywhere
and the next morning i was pickin black boogers out of my nose
but hey..it was worth it
saturday it was my moms b-day
she got a dj and a taco stand
mmmmm mmm
dillon came over
kissies
and he helped me with my project
sunday
dillon left for work and at 1
i met up with jessica, nikki, and her friend iris
we ate at some place in venice
i think it was called...the boardwalk of venice..iono
randomly i saw you...
walked around for a while after...stole shit
i love jessica for helpin me out >.<
and yea that basically was it
and now im waiting for alia to come pick me up
were gonna go see tragedy :)
i havnt been to a show with her in a while
so im excited
i think my homie alvin might come too
which would be awesome!
and mmm yea.......................
......aBOOP!
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[03 May 2008|06:22pm] |
first entry since i dont know when....
i've been stuck at home trying to finish my portfolio
but i probably wont...and i really dont care at this point...
i only need to pass 2 of my classes
so im not gonna bother putting my energy in anything else
i'm too stressed for that
i donno....shits been lame lately...
i overheard about something that upset me
i didnt show it
and im sorry...
he was an awesome cat...despite the fact he slobbered up the ass
....by the time i figuered what i'd say it was already to late...
i donno if you'll read this but i figured i write in hopes that maybe you would
i will admit that i do miss you sometimes.....
i miss nights of holding my best friend close while drunkenly singing the lyrics to songs some band was playing
iiiii donno.....maybe one day...
but not today
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[01 Jan 2008|01:44am] |
Happy New Year!
wow another years gone by..
what a trip
you look back on all the years and see how far you've come
and how much you've changed
its a trip....
i had fun today...hung out with my friend john and just chilled with a couple of friends
...im out in mississippi which is nice
but i miss you guys!! and ill see you soon
night!
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[25 Nov 2007|09:32pm] |
"it doesnt matter what u lost. what matters is what u have left and what u do with it"
i had a good birthday
i love my friends
i miss you...
i hate how i can feel so weak....that i get so consumed in it.
i wish i could just shrug it off
theres a billion fish in the sea
one day ill find my fishy
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[10 Sep 2007|09:12pm] |
so school is back....how the fuck that happened so fast...i donno
decided to not take cosmetology and instead got 6 art classes?!
ha o well i deal
life is actually really great...and i couldnt be happier
me and dillon barely fight
i enjoy my classes
and i am finding inspirations for drawing
no drama..at all
its great
saturday i think im going to sixflags for davids b-day
that should be fun :)
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[29 Aug 2007|11:10pm] |
i love my boyfriend
i really do :)
friday is his b-day
and hes turning 20
thats wierd....
i go back to school on tuesday
lame/ not at the same time
subhumans!
i hope i can go!!
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[07 Aug 2007|11:53pm] |
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..exhausted..
but monday i think i will ever have...
woke up at 7
got ready
met up with a bunch of tess' friends
went on a 5 hour canoe trip
it was beautiful
we stopped everyso often to just chill and swim
there even was a stream
and when i walked up the stream
there were three beautful butterflies (i think they were monarchs)
i got so close i could touch them
....bautiful...just beautiful
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[01 Aug 2007|11:18pm] |
21 more days...not including today
this week was cool
went to new orleans on tuesday
then drunkness yesterday
drank a lil too much
nights kinda a blur
today i hung out with a bunch of guys
haha buncha WoW nerds
but i cant talk >.<
o0o0o and i almost got inot a car accident
that was no good
john was turning and the other guy was going straight and i guess they didnt see eachother
but then i yelled and john swirved and so did they guy
and were all alright :)
night
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[29 Jul 2007|06:15pm] |
i stretched my ears to 0
i have about a thousand mosquito bites
my days of being sober came to an end out here....
i have one main friend out here
we spend our days with stoners...they get so lame....
that i get high just to make them go away
saw the simpsons movie
it was hilarious
im hanging out with mallory and my sister tess
i read running with scissors
now reading dry
i miss home sometimes.....
..but i like it out here
i like driving on roads covered with trees as far as the eye can see...
....watching as my brother and sister grow
i miss my stinky..
but mostly i miss you
i miss your touch
and they way you smell
laying around all day and staring into your beautiful eyes....
*sigh*
22 more days.....
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[29 Jul 2007|06:02pm] |
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24 more days till i come home
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[05 Jun 2007|09:20pm] |
meh meh meh
so i saw dillon today
that was nice
he came during the second half of art class
and then stayed till 8
i enjoyed his company
but i would have really enjoyed some affection
...why dont you understand that
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[04 Jun 2007|10:54pm] |
suidgfslzgkdslz
hmmm
...look...and just listen
i love you
from the moment i layed eyes on you
to the time you gave me a shoulder to cry on
your as vital to me as the sun is to the earth
...i dont think i could live without you
your the blood that keeps my heart beating
and the oxygen that keeps me from suffocating
i miss the love of my fucking life
...i miss my best friend...
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[04 Jun 2007|10:26pm] |
you can go fuck yourself
thats all thers is to it
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[31 May 2007|09:04pm] |
SATURDAY is my first day of drivers ed
....hopefully christina,victor, and i will gets to chill >.<
...and maybe...if im lucky ill get to see my boo as well...
...kinda doubt it..
...but a girl can dream cant she.....
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[29 May 2007|05:34pm] |
so far things are gradually getting better
..or maybe being angry and upset for so long
caused me to just not give a shit anymore
i donno either way im doing better
...except i dont think things will ever go back to the way they were
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[13 May 2007|12:16pm] |
i dont know what im doing anymore
everything is falling apart
im trying so hard to keep my head up
and not let things get to me
i really am
but im failing miserably now
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[04 May 2007|07:54pm] |
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ah.....i can already tell this weekend will be fantastic :) <3
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[29 Apr 2007|11:18am] |
FUCK cops
and their bullshit curfew law
Court Date: June 13th
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[24 Apr 2007|07:18pm] |
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ai im bored.....
school...counting down the days till its over
..im doing shitty in school
but im sure that ill pass the semester
weekend was...ok
but i hope this weekend will be better
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